“Sorry, I did it again…”
It’s old but the scars still remain
1. When did you first start self harming? October 20t, 2011
2. When you first started self harming, did you have a reason? My mother and I got into some pretty bad fights… I was a failure of a child
3. What gave you the idea to self harm? Alot of my friends do it… but its not like I havent thought about it before
4. What did you use when you first self harmed? A small dull knife
5. How severe was your self harm when you first started? I broke skin, not enough to bleed though… but there is a scar
6. How did it make you feel when you first self harmed? Less angry and like I free from everything else in the world
7. Did anyone find out about your self harm? Um, one friend…
8. Did you tell anyone about your self harm? I ended up telling my mom and close friends later
9. Did you continue to self harm from when you first started? Wish I didn’t…
10. When was your self harm at it’s worst? This past January, when I first used a razor
11. What times have you turned to self harm? Boredom, if I missed it, anger, depression, friends making fun of it…
12. When did you become addicted to self harm (if you are)? You know your addicted when you don’t want to stop… and I don’t want to but I do… so yes:/
13. Has there been a time, when you haven’t been able to go without self harming? Um yes and no I guess
14. Whereabouts do you self harm? *Both* Wrists, arms, ankles, and thighs
15. Where abouts have you self harmed? Home and school a few times… just digging my nails into my arm. Oh and church a few times with my nails
16. Where do you have the most scars? My right arm
17. Where have you self harmed the least? Left thigh
18. What have you self harmed with? My nails, razors, paper, dull knifes
19. How do you self harm? Cutting.
20. What are your reasons for self harming? Ummm angery, punishment, friends making fun of it, family… yah..
21. What do you like about self harming? The blood, the rush, the adrenaline
22. Do you want to stop self harming? Yes…but no :/
23. What triggers you to self harm? Umm, pictures of cut/cutting, my over powering empathy for my friends that cut, fighting with my family(mom), cousins making fun of me… ya
24. If you went back to the time when you first self harmed, would you tell yourself not to self harm? Yes.
25. Have you lost friends because of your self harming? Nope, none at all, there all super suportivee
26. Who knows about your self harm? Most of my family, my friends that cut, neighborhood friends, and like 10 other friends…
27. Are you ashamed that you self harm? Fuck yes. I HATE that I do it
28. Do you self harm to punish yourself? Yes.
29. Do others judge you because you self harm? Not really, I’ve talked to my friends about how if they judge or joke it hurts me alot so no
30. Do you judge others who self harm? God no, why would I jugde people who are just as hurt as me?
Where have you self harmed?
[x] Arms
[x] Legs
[ ] Stomach (well my hip)
[ ] Face
[ ] Chest
[ ] Hands
[x] Feet (ankles)
[ ] Knees
[ ] Head
